\\ should i stay or should i go \\

pregnancy makes everything seem more urgent

and yet less important

at the same time.

lately (who am i kidding, since always)

i've been thinking about school

whether or not i chose the right track for myself

whether or not i fit in

and this profession is the thing for me

whether or not i have what it takes

and i honestly don't know.

most of the time i'm mainly pressured

to finish all my tasks

and just get them over with

i don't feel like i'm giving it my hardest

because i honestly don't know if i want to

i don't know if i have it in me

i don't find myself sketching in my sketchbook 24/7

i don't find myself feeling the way i thought i would

i don't know if i should stay

i'm scared to quit

it might be that a lot of my fellow classmates

feel this way

but when i'm feeling this way

it mainly feels lonely

in the meanwhile

i'm running on inertia

for the lack of a better idea

if you have an idea

feel free to voice it...